A huge DARN MY HIDE after my attitude yesterday. I should spend the day in time-out.
Yes, my iPad crashed. Yes, all my work everything is on it. Yes, I thought it was backed up to iCloud and it wasn't. Yes, yes, yes ...
I am SO glad yesterday is behind me. And I am so disappointed in myself! I'm the first to proclaim "come what may and love it" and "it doesn't matter what's going on around you, you can still have peace in your heart" and all that wisdom. I didn't practice ANY of it yesterday and feel horrible about it today.
No, I didn't egg the neighbor's house, I didn't spit on anyone, I didn't yell and scream. But I carried a heavy dark cloud and didn't care who was near, I willed my cloud to rain on them too. Mostly it was my family at home who was affected - the people I love the most (of course). How do I undo that? I can't - I've lost that day - it's behind me and I can never reclaim it. I have limited time with my family - we all do. How could I have not just wasted an entire day, but colored it black so that everyone wants to pretend it didn't exist?
I have already prayed for forgiveness, and now I will feast on humble pie for breakfast and beg forgiveness from everyone I came in contact with yesterday ... especially Brad and the kids. I know they will all immediately forgive. I hope I can forgive myself.
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